There is so much beauty and goodness in this life despite the struggles. I just get my "blinders" on when I get down and only focus on the suffering. I have to find the balance that reminds me of all of the wonderful things.
“Some people feel guilty about their anxieties and regard them as a defect of faith. I don't agree at all. They are afflictions, not sins. Like all afflictions, they are, if we can so take them, our share in the Passion of Christ”
Ahhh. C.S. Lewis always has something to make me feel better.
I am learning more about the redemption in suffering. Before a few years ago, I never understood that our suffering could allow us to join in the Passion of Christ. Paul says in Colossians 1:24
"It makes me happy to be suffering for you now, and in my own body to make up all the hardships that still have to be undergone by Christ for the sake of his body, the Church"
And James 1:2-4
"My brothers, consider it a great joy when trials of many kinds come upon you, for you well know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance, and perseverance must complete its work so that you will become fully developed, complete, not deficient in any way."
I needed something to give me hope to continue to fight the good fight. Good will come from the suffering. I will continue on. I will pick some flowers and tickle my kids. And there I will find the goodness in life fresh anew.
Thanks be to God.